Can i tell you a little secret?

When life becomes just one huge blur. One scribble on a page. One crunchy autumn leaf.
When living becomes too much. Too complicated. Too emotionless from the rush of emotions.
When people become one person. No differentiation. No similarity. No longer human.
I need to escape somewhere, anywhere. I need to connect. To have that one moment of knowing.
I need that surge of electricity to make me feel alive. To connect me to living. To reconnect me with the world. To remind me that i need to see. I need to feel. To reawaken my senses. To remove the numbness. The nothingness. The blankness. To coax me out of hiding.
I need to be snapped back into reality. Out of my own special world.

- But i like it there. Its safe. Its where id like to live. Its where time stops, stands still and waits. Waits patiently. Waits for me to catch up. Where time is mine and mine alone. Where i survive. Where I'm secure. I really really like it there. Its safe. Its mine. Its far away. Its where id like to live someday.

......You've Got Me Tightly In Your Grip......

When you open the door it makes me smile to see you
When you say hello it makes me want to hold you
When you say goodbye it makes me want to kiss you
When you call i cant hold back the smile - a big cheshire cat grin
When i hang up i want to hang on
When you hang up i want you to want to hang on
When im not with you i think of you
When i think of you i miss you
When im with you i hold onto time and the precious seconds we have together
When i drive off and you wave i wonder if you miss me already
When i drive off and you wave i miss you already
When i imagine the future i place you in it
Im not sure where though but i want you there
I want you always there.
When i imagine the future i wonder if you imagine me in yours
Do you not just see me in it but also even want me in it?

I wish i could see through your eyes just for one moment - Im always trying to look in.
If im looking out from the inside i'd know what you think
I'd know if you care
I'd know if you feel
I'd know how you see me
I'd know if you want me
I'd know if you need me
I'd know if you deeply care for me
I'd know if i meant anything
I'd just know.

Moving to the Moon.

I cant take all this shit anymore. Its just one thing after the other.
I'm not this, I'm not that... 'you're worthless', 'you're a waste of space'.
Fuck it all.
I cant seem to please anyone.
If I'm such a failure at everything why even bother anymore.
I'll just fly to the moon and live there away from everything and everyone and look down at it all and laugh.