Repeat After Me

i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am i am what i am.

I Am What I Am

Breathe.
Calm.
Relax.
Remember

I AM WHAT I AM.

Accept.

.....im running away screaming

Everything is so fucked up. Why are people so hard to understand? We're all the same species so it should make sense. I should be able to understand why but i havnt got a fucking clue. People dont make it any easier for each other though either.

Im properly lost in this black hole of other peoples emotions and so confused by it all that i dont have a chance to remember that i also have some. I have emotions. I am fucking human. Im definately no angel and i have plenty faults but seriously what the fuck!?

Ive forgotten about the fact that it all affects me too and screws me over.

maybe if i stay frustrated long enough and my blood boils longer it will all just evaporate away taking me with it and i'll just make other peoples lives easier by not being in them and not cause anyone else any problems anymore. Im sick of it.

i want to be a little nothing for the rest of my life.
i cant be arsed with it any more. i want to press the eject button from life and just escape to as far away as fucking possible as soon as fucking possible.

Dreaming of Being Loved By Only You.

Hear me out and let me speak,

Let me banter,
Let me be weak.
Just let me pretend, there's no extra cost.
It's free to imagine what could emerge.
It's free to think of future days and weeks.

I was there tonight and it was so damn hard.

Let me just dream it
It's my only real hope,
After i leave him i always replay,
I say these words aloud to no one
to no one but me
wishing they float towards you
Powered by the magnetic attraction i constantly feel,
Pray that they might just really come true...

"Maybe one day it will be me and you."